Not Sugar Candy

Hey Kids,

“We have not journeyed across the centuries, across the oceans, across the mountains, across the prairies, because we are made of sugar candy.” –Winston Churchill. December 1941

I heard this quote today and it hit home.

Given by the ever statesman Winston Churchill to the Canadian Parliament shortly following the events that made assured that Canada as well as the US would be playing a part in the expanding world conflict. He shared these words to give them the hope and the assurance that we, as the collective good guys, had the metal to face the oncoming challenges.Winston Churchill

Moving forward, it’s sometimes easy to think of yourself as unable to withstand the pressures of today. Life is not easy, yet we’ve all had to face and overcome challenges, weather failures and disappointments, and continue on from our victories; they all give us the foundation that will support us tomorrow.

We are what our past had made us. That isn’t a bad thing.

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Take 3

Hey Kids,

2016 didn’t bring me an endless surplus of riches, but I did OK. I worked a second job the entire year. It did afford us some fun things and the ability to help a few of the kids.

Of course the job kept me from some other things. This blog especially. I can’t entirely lay all blame on the increased job hours on my neglect of my daily posts, but it provided me with enough reason to let it go.futile

It also allowed me to forget where my attention may have been better served.

I am a writer. But along with my daily blog went my daily writing, editing, and publishing. I was a writer that no longer wrote.

Steven Pressfield would call it surrendering to Resistance.

I had lost. Or more precisely, I’ve been losing.

I’m done losing.

I quit the job and I’m writing again.

I’m a writer.

 

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Whew!

Hey kids,

I know it’s been like six days since I last posted, but what a six days it has been.

I last wrote on Wednesday, after which I worked my over night job.Walmart-Logo-880x645

Thursday, I made dinner for the kids and Annette.mac and cheese

Friday I went to a little diner with Annette where we sipped sweet tea and discussed and caught up on each other’s lives and jobs. sweet teaEnded up getting a little less than two hours sleep before the Friday over night.Walmart-Logo-880x645

Saturday, got home in the AM, took a quick half hour nap and went to a play.Big-river The play was adapted from Mark Twain’s Huck Finn so I couldn’t miss it. ice creamHad some Ice cream afterwards and then got my sugar crash and two hours sleep before the overnight gig. Walmart-Logo-880x645

Sunday meant Uinta mountain kayaks and a little bit of fishing. lake

Overnight, with three hours sleep.Walmart-Logo-880x645

Monday, at last, it was a holiday and I got some sleep before feeding the tribe and attending a Johnny Cash tribute concert.johnny cash

I apologize that I didn’t slip a blog post or two in between.

Life sometimes comes at you fast; you just have to live it and enjoy.

 

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Pioneers

Hey kids,

A few weeks ago, we stopped at the dam of our newest favorite reservoir. I had noticed the little info marker before but never took the time to read it. This time I did.

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It took me a few passes at it to get it.

If we look hard enough, most of the obstacles we face are not entirely unique; only to us. If you look around, there are signs where others have passed. They already forged a path and you can have the confidence that it’s passable.

Pioneers give me courage. If they did it, why can’t I?

 

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Same but Different

Hey kids,

The Provo River has been one of my favorite fishing places. I’ve spent countless hours wading through those waters chasing the large trout lurking in the pools and riffles. The middle Provo, as it is called, is no secret to anyone who fishes Utah waters.

The lower Provo, I had never explored; it’s not really fly fishing water.

This night, we had rented a canoe to explore the river. I’ve kayaked, but never canoed.

From where we loaded into the canoe at 8:30, we followed the river downstream up to where the river flows into Utah Lake. The skies were cloudy but it remained light enough to navigate the numerous obstructions in the water.

As the skies darkened, we turned back upstream. We paddled up past where we had begun and continued until the clouds cleared enough to revel what we had hoped to see that night, the full moon.

Although I’ve seen plenty of full moons; at least one a month for the past 50 years; occasionally two; and I’ve been on the Provo River before; and I’ve navigated a paddle-driven boat;  I’ve never put them all together before.provorivermoonlight

Nice remix.

 

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Didn’t Give in to Sunday

Hey kids,

It would’ve been so easy to just wake up today and call it a rest day at home. But we didn’t.

With the Friday night bike ride, the street fair yesterday, and the late night waiting up for the kids to return from the concert with possible car troubles; it would’ve been easy to just pack it in.

Instead we got up, made some pancakes, and got our butts to the lake.FHD1643

My kayak is still out of commission but we grabbed our life jackets, the inner tube from my fishing float tube, and a picnic lunch. We made it for an afternoon of fun and relaxation.

I work overnight tonight and we’ll have to leave well before I will want to, but I feel accomplished, like I didn’t give in.

To me that’s everything.

 

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Around an Island in the Dark

Hey kids,

I’ve spoke before how much I enjoy Antelope Island.

The isolated desert island in the middle of the Great Salt Lake, up to this point, has only been experienced by me in the daylight and  on a motorized vehicle.

Not anymore.13718575_1125848827475904_4128455032069227520_n

Last night we rode the 24 miles in the dark on a pedal bike.

Granted, we rode with hundreds of others, but in the dark.

I’m not an experienced ride, and it has been a few years since I last attempted to ride, but I did it. I made the 24 miles! (Disclaimer:a few steps on some of the late inclines were walked.)

Apparently the others in our group liked it so much, it’s now on our to-do list for next year. My only hope is that I get some training done before then.

 

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Extra Time

EHey kids,

My mind still thinks back to the passing of Angela last week.

And of Andrew. A friend grown from working together who passed the day after Thanksgiving a number of years ago. He was 48.

Tracy died 4 years ago. She was my age. She was also a staff member and someone I really loved. After her passing, I finally admitted that she had always been my favorite, as accused for years. Her passing hit me hard.

Life is so random.IMG_20160712_191038

I’m fifty. I work hard and I’m amazed how much I’m still able to push myself. I have good health. Maybe a few issues here and there but I’m healthy. I have a thinking mind. I have a dream and a future. I have hope to see my kids grow up, to see grand kids, and to share many years and experiences and adventures with my incredible wife.

Why do I get to carry on after others around me, who had just as much to live for, were cut short? I don’t know. I thank God. I’ve been given more time to pursue my hopes, to enjoy life, and to share with others.

I hope there’s a better place my friends have entered. My wish is that it turns out to be me who is missing out for sticking around here.

But in case it all ends with my last breath, I hope I’m breathing hard because I made the most of what I’d been giving.

Enjoy life; tomorrow may never come.

 

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