To Be Olympic

imagesCA6XET15I love the pageantry: the drama: the emotions.

So much is on the line, every run, every performance, every moment.

The leader board rolls in constant change. Sometimes underdogs winning from behind, sometimes expected leaders winning it all as expected. We get to watch it all.

Actually we don’t.

We, the viewers, only see one version of one finished project. Many do not see the qualifying rounds. Even less of us see the National qualifications that select the teams. And fewer still, the competitions, the trials, the practices, or the training. In fact, I bet less than 1/2 of 1/2 of 1/2 of 1% ever see anything other than the NBC nationally broadcasted, primetime events. I’ll raise my hand and admit that I’m one of them that only sees the Olympian during the free-TV broadcasts.

It doesn’t mean that I don’t appreciate the efforts. But it is so easily lost in the heat of the moment that it’s only a moment.

I like sports because of the humanity that it displays; the conquest of the human spirit. I love this stage of Humanities, of will, of might, of determination, of success and of failure.

I love the application or perspective that the Olympics provides for me.

I write books. No one sees the hours I spend by myself struggling over this word or the other. These sentences this morning have been changed a few times, even this one. But no one, but a few, see anything but the finished product. My writings are then read and the moment is over.

My moments continue.

How much I put into these other moments are mine and mine alone. No one cares whether I do it or not. I know, however, that these moments will determine whether the finished product is good enough to win literary Gold or not. Maybe they will only add up to be good enough for a passing “not bad”; perhaps only meriting to some to be barely worthy of a “one-star” brutal review. There will be a point where my talent, my efforts, and my end results can only take me so far. There are others out there doing the same thing and the competition is tough.

Some are better writers than I am. Some are better funded or supported. Others may even be lucky. Those are factors over which I have little control. I can only put in the work and hone the craft the best I can. When I have taken my training, my practice, my qualifications; as far as I can, I then can only put it out before my judges, the readers.

I will not be on NBC. You might not be either. But we can watch those athletes that are performing before us. We can cheer and cry with them. And then mimic their efforts as they have mimicked our lives.

To stand on the Podium must be a wonderful feeling, but to have a chance to even compete for the chance to do so; is not an accident.

Neither is yours or mine.

The Muse

Who is this Muse of which I speak,
That enters my thoughts at will?
She is the one that forms the verse
And words that make me feel.

Sometimes like a big brass band
She sounds within my head.
Other times I must stand still and listen
When she whispers it instead.

Sometimes She speaks in words
Or views,
Or scents,
Other times she hides from me.

I, the writer, have but no choice
To wait,
Pen ready,
Until told what words shall be.

I watch the world and tales untold
Dancing and taunting before me.
But not until Her music plays aloud
Can I hear the song of the story.

I pray she’ll always stay with me.
And always try to make her smile.
For she is the one worth writing for;
The one that gives my form, its style.

My Year in Review (2013)

Here are some of things that I did or were of importance to me:

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Fred

Got a new fish. My first fish in my adult lifetime.

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Visited Hardware Ranch to see the Elk via horse drawn Sleigh.

Dinner with a Vampire Valentine's Day

 

Valentine’s Dinner with a Vampire at Castle of Chaos.

Mercur Cemetery

Mercur Cemetery

Visited Mercur Cemetery.

Salt Lake Marina

Salt Lake Marina

Visited the Great Salt Lake

Visited Great Basin National Park.

Arrowhead Hunting

Arrowhead Hunting

Arrowhead Hunting

Strawberry 20" Cutt

Strawberry 20″ Cutt

Ice-Off at Strawberry

Little Red

Little Red

100 Mile Bike Ride for Annette

Pony Express Station Remains

Antelope Island Farm

Antelope Island Farm

Meeting of the Rails

Meeting of the Rails

Porter Rockwell's Cabin

Porter Rockwell’s Cabin

Visited many Historical Sites

Hunter Graduation

Hunter Graduation

My Eldest Son’s Graduation

Manti Mountains

Manti Mountains

Motor biking.

Kayaks

Bountiful Pond

Tried out some Kayaks

Geodes

Geodes

Dug up some Geodes

Farmington Canyon

Farmington Canyon

Mueller Park Canyon

Mueller Park Canyon

Hiking

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Fishing (Including November 11th trip to Strawberry)

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The Wheel Bearing Incident

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My books making Kindle and Print version debuts (TTC was out in Kindle in 2012)

Christmas with my baby

Christmas with my baby

And Finally Christmas with my baby!

A New Year, Same Ol’ Me

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This morning felt just like the last one and I didn’t take on any grand resolutions to begin on this “magical date.” but that doesn’t mean that I’m not excited about this new year.

I woke up early (confession- I fell asleep way before midnight last night), and after helping Annette get off to work (way bummer), I finished the second edit of a chapter of my work in progress, and hit the gym.

Now I know that there are many people who join the gym in January. But I joined in December. I know, Big Diff! But I joined because I needed to and a new gym opened and I took advantage of the cheap sign-up.

Anyway, I made an awesome Ham and Cheese Omelet and am now settling down for another writing session. If I could make a resolution to copy this day everyday, I would. But I digress.

A new year does not a new me make. I have to be realistic. My goals have to have meaning. They have to be consistent with what I have done, who I am, and what’s realistic.

So for the record, here are some of my goals for this next year, or so:

Finish the second Porter Rockwell Novel “Cursing Black’s Gold”. Release in Kindle and Print this spring.
Finish 2014 Christmas story (working title “The Biggest Little Christmas in the World”) to be released by November 1 in Kindle and Print.
Begin Third Porter Rockwell Novel (working title “The Devil’s Due”).
Evaluate editing of “Inmachuk Confabulations”, determine if it is right for publishing.
Maintain my work out schedule to be ready and able to climb Mt. Nebo this late summer.
Plan one major motorcycle tour this summer.
Fish a lot.

I have some wishes concerning being able to see my kids, and some personal relationship needs; but those are not really right for this forum. And they dependent on others. I’ll stick to those things in my control.

Wow. What a boring post. I’ll avoid such nonsense in the future. But of that, I can’t be resolute either.

My Gift

I don’t have much. But I do, through Amazon, have the ability to make my Kindle book “Twice the Christmas” available for free through the Christmas days ahead. It’s my gift to anyone who would like it. You don’t need a kindle to read it, just the desire to accept a gift.

If you enjoy it (or don’t) I would greatly appreciate a review of whether you think. Or don’t. There’s no strings attached. I will not receive any royalties, emails, names, etc.

I don’t have much, but I can still wish a Merry Christmas to anyone who would like to hear it.

Merry Christmas!

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Back from my Toils

This might start out like sounding like complaining but please keep I mind that it is not. I am doing what I love and have enjoyed most, if not all (no, most) of my time doing it.

I have been preoccupied with readying the books Twice the Christmas and Ain’t Dead Yet for print. I learned a lot of formatting, font setting , and even a little cover art techniques in the process. I’m very proud of the finish products, as they become available. Twice the Christmas is now ready, I am proofing Ain’t Dead Yet now but it’ll be out soon as well.

I’m doing what I truly enjoy. I had envisioned writing, had done some writing int he pas, a lot really. But as I immerse myself deeper into the workings of bookmaking, I feel like I fall deeper into that groove of life that I sought.

They say if you never want to work another day in your life, do something that you love. I have my day job, and I have writing. One goes by slowly, the other I never seem to have enough time to do as much as I want. Want to guess which one is which?

Find your passion. Then do it.

I did and I’m loving it!

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